This summer I have desperately enjoyed pretty much
every day including those in which I was sick for the challenge they presented.
At this point, I don’t feel like there is something missing. Sure, my life is
not perfect and there are a number of things I am disappointed about. I no
longer live for the future, but in the moment of every day (this discounts the
steps I think are wise like paying off credit, pursuing a degree and finding
suitable employment). I think I have come to trust God in a way that the
responsibility to make something of myself does not rest in my hands. I know my
job and do not try to do God’s. He is the one who raises up and tears down. He
brings poverty and riches. He knows the times, the seasons, the years of my
life, and the purpose of my existence.
I do not know what He has planned for me, but I intend to
enjoy the entire journey. In the situations I find myself, there is nothing
that can change my state of contentment as long as my focus is on Jesus. I do
not expect perfection of myself, but expect improvement.
I sometimes reflect on my past life in which everything I
did surmounted to the expectations of others for the eventual accomplishment of
some distant goal. Unfortunately the achievement of the goal was not worth the
sacrifice taken to accomplish it and I often wondered at the happiness and
success of those who did not live their life with dedication toward an ideal
achievement.
In a previous reflection, I wrote on the stupidity of pursuing
progress by sacrificing the life that it was supposed to improve. Yesterday, I
watched another movie that took me back to the joyous simplicity of life that
is lived outside the bounds of Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. Having food and
clothes, let us be content (scripture). We
do not have to accomplish something great in order to make our lives worth
something. From another angle, that which is great is not often thought
worthwhile to pursue.
From a Christian standpoint, this is a distortion brought
about by sin. That which is great (love, service, righteousness, peace, etc…)
is often sacrificed for the sake of material, physical, financial, or even
mental productivity. In pursuit of becoming the ‘boss of all,’ very few
undertake the path of becoming ‘servant of all.’ Yet, this is the means by
which Jesus won his glory.
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As a student of economics, I appreciate the ability of
industry to fight against poverty and allow people the luxury of food and
water. However, more than this, I do not understand the worship of progress as
the means to freedom for a people who often enjoy life more than those in
advanced countries. In a question, which is more valuable: a short life of hard
work and joy, or a long life of easy work without joy. As the western world carries its treasures of
economics to the developing world, it is not accompanied by a philosophy of how
to use these treasures successfully.
While on the subject of Christian economics, I should note
that the blessing of God is the source of prosperity and comfortable living.
Certainly on an individual level, it appears that wealth can be gotten by
unsavory means. However, on the national and ultimate levels, biblical prophecy and example
seems to indicate that food, famine, health, power, wealth, etc... are gifts
from the creator for nations of people to accomplish his purposes.
To further support this idea, one could site the numbers of people who when describing their success seem to attribute their accomplishment to some level of luck
or providence. When duplicating their methods fails to produce the same results, one wonders what actually determined the accomplishment.
Considering the western propensity toward an internal locus of control, it is
understandable that I have neither seen nor searched for scholarship in business and economics
from the standpoint of divine providence and a holistic lifestyle. Though I have touched on various ideas while browsing eastern philosophy, I don't believe that even these explorations have the full picture since they lack the Christian perspective.
To end this short and somewhat scattered reflection, I quote a wise man who wrote in Ecclesiastes 6:1-3 “There is an evil I have seen under the sun, and
it lies heavy on mankind: a man to who m God gives wealth, possessions and
honor, so that he lacks nothing of all that he desires, yet God does not give
him power to enjoy them… his soul is not satisfied with life’s good things…a
stillborn child is better than he.”