For the past two and a half weeks, I have found very
little time to pray and even less time to reflect. But as time goes by between
the moments I still spend with God, I find my attention slipping onto things
that do not matter and even into religious ritual that I hope will jump-start
the engine of self-motivated, successful Christian living. I begin to forget
that my identity is not found in what I have or what I do, but in the love that
God has for me. I forget that I am not the one who I depend on for life, for
food, and for a car to drive. I forget that my relationship with God can be so
much more than simply praying, acting in a certain way, or knowing certain
things.
I recognize what is happening as a slip into a world that
looks less and less like the kingdom of God and more like my pride, but I am
too busy in pursuit of what I want to take more than a token step back in the
right direction. I am learning that not only am I unable to follow God without
His grace, but apart from His work, I do not even want to try.
The evil that is inside me would draw me further and
further into myself, the busyness of my world, and the hollow joys of my success.
Even the love that I would show to others becomes a meaningless action when I
am in such a condition.
Then like Peter who lost his focus on Jesus while walking on the water, I notice the waves around me and begin to sink. My only hope is that the Son of God will once again reach out His arm to pull me back to Him.
Then like Peter who lost his focus on Jesus while walking on the water, I notice the waves around me and begin to sink. My only hope is that the Son of God will once again reach out His arm to pull me back to Him.
That is grace!
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