I wrote this a few weeks ago and posted it here since it plays a role in the decisions I made over the next several weeks. There will be more to come.
April 22
This night at the end of the prayer furnace meeting, I
found myself once again in the position of letting go of everything and
completely trusting in God for my future and my present. My prayer was to live
in the present, each day, one day at a time, one moment at a time asking Jesus
for what to do next, following His voice and loving other people. I have a
feeling that I will be doing something in Chicago that I don’t expect at the
moment. I don’t know what it is yet, but it has something to do with my desire
for the church to be free from religion.
Then I asked when that was to start and how I was to begin
my work in Chicago and He said that I had several interesting things I was
working on that I should continue to do until I was told that it was the right
time to start something else. However, I need to hold on to my projects loosely
and always be ready for the opportunity that will present itself when I don’t
expect it.
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I have been challenged to commit to something and believe
I have not yet embraced that challenge. Tonight, God spoke through a man that
‘I had to talk to’ who had spent much of his life avoiding commitments and was
sad because he had never accomplished anything. However, he is now committed to
one thing: his relationship with Jesus. That is what I once again committed
myself to.
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In any case, I believe I am called to something big, but
my focus is to be on something little. My call is the kingdom, my mission is
love. Simply living honorably, acting justly, loving mercy, and walking humbly
with my God.
At this moment, I am perfectly at peace with my future
because I know who has planned it and who will take care of me through it. Even
though I don’t know the first steps, I know what will take me the right
direction. Lord, give me the courage to walk that way even when no one else
will join me. God will change the heart of His church through prayer. Through
time spent with Him, through people who will give up their lives to Him. If I
can live a life following Jesus example, I will be satisfied.
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